The Only Constant is Change.

Nothing ever stays the same; it always changes, but theres nothing we can do about it but embrace it & live from it. I've wanted so many things for myself and although i've accomplished a lot, i still like im a complete FAIL. Somethings missing & i cant figure out what it is. I wanna go back, back in time & start over from high school. Id say 7th grade, but ehhh what really happens when your that young. It all begins in high school & there is SOOOO much i would have changed if i could. I know a lot of people say that, but after each event in high school right after i wished i had done differently. Dont get me wrong, i can still do a lot ckuz im still young but its just not the same. My motivation has died out and the few people that can boost it back up are 1200 miles away. On a better note, i've gained someone back in my life that ive missed deeply but never showed it because i didnt think there was a point. With that i can hope for the best, but i'll always except for the worse, just to keep myself sane.

Day 3: 8 ways to win your heart<3

1- you have to take me as i am, dont try to mold or change me

2- killer SMILE<3>

3- gotta love taking pictures; i do photoshoots

4- have something going with your life; school, steady/promising job & ambitions

5- pick up on the little things i like and surprise me with it

6- make me smile & laugh<3

7- make me see things in a different light

- feeeeeeeeeeeeeed me ;) haha

thats 8; theres more, but there are the basics... it seems easy, but i dont fall easy

i do love hard, when it happens!

- "Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."

T. Roosevelt

xoxo.

Forever Young.

Day 2: 9 things about yourself
-- so its supposed to be a 10 day challenge but its probably going to take me 15 days because im not home long enough to do so, oh well :)

1] i have OCD, ADD & im anemic
2] im spoiled & i always want EVERYTHING!
3] when i love, i love HARD- & i think thats my downfall
4] i dont like anything about myself, except my eyes :(
5] i put a lot of people before myself
6] i strive to get to the top & I WILL
7] im down to try almost anything
8] i have an obsession with ice, shoes, hoodies & pictures
9] i used to love to spend money, but now im loving to SAVE money!

the distance is annoying; but every night i go to bed with a smile just from words.

3 months & counting down.

years have gone by, but we've stayed the same.

"I neva had to worry about the things that worry me wit you!".

we dont judge; positive & encouraging.

dont worry, be happy.
xoxo.

Something New.

SUZUKI GSX-R600

yes; this is what i want ... my next goal & hopefully new toy by the beginning of 2011 :) i already know my dads okay with it, my mom though? ehhh not so much, but its what i want so yeah thats enough for me. -- I want it white & purple or black and purple, doesnt come in purple so we'll have to change that! I have so much going on right now that its stressful & irritating. I've made some poor choices, but no more of that. Its grind time & EVERYTHING i do from now on will be for ME! im tired of doing shit and it not be appreacitated. It sucks to be taken for granrted. I have a lot of changes coming my way & i'm going into these changes with full force... its not 2011 yet but there will be a NEW sybil coming your way, just watch :)

10 day challenge; DAY 1
yeah i know im all late, but ive been busy & stressed so now let it begin

1] I hate that we havent talked in so long and your not far from me, we need to re-connect & get back the way we used to, i love you & miss you, we've been strong for & now it feels like we're getting weak.
2] i forgive you for all that you've done & i appreciate the last things you've told me, im free & i have you to thank for that

3] you are thee number 1 person in my life, i love you more than anyone & anything, we'll be together forever; changing, growing & living!

4] i just met you, not even formally & we talked for only a total time of 20 minutes; but id like to thank you for everything you said; its stuff i tell myself but i needed to hear it from someone else to realize what needed to be done... remember im 21! haha

5] i miss you, you cross my mind from time to time even when we go without speaking. the times we had were some of the best times i've had ever and i love how we always go back and talk about that time. Whether you know this or not, i love you.

6] how this happened with us, i dont know but i like it. we've grown really close & i know i can talk to you & tell you anything. im not gonna lie, down the road its going to change & i hope you can forgive me for it, but know i'll always be there just like you've been there for me

7] i still think about you & i dont know why. It was only 1 month, but i guess because in 1 month you showed me things in a whole different way. I loved that change for the short while and sometimes i wish i had it back, but its okay because i'll still have what i know with me later on. take care of yourself.

8] i know im far, but i hate how this distance is keeping us distant. it bothers me, but at the same time i know that when i see you again, its going to be like i was never gone. love you!

9] we spend a lot of time together, we both want big changes but were not making moves to do so, so we need to get on that, i got your back & i'll help you through it.

10] i misssssssssssssssssssssss you, come back to me now!

xoxo.

She's Back.

well its been a very long time since ive last blogged- soo sad. ive been blogging in my head when i could be putting it down here; still gotta make a few changes, but im working on it -- number one on my list....

Ten Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order what so ever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smilelys that descirbe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


gonna do this.
xoxo