The Only Constant is Change.

Nothing ever stays the same; it always changes, but theres nothing we can do about it but embrace it & live from it. I've wanted so many things for myself and although i've accomplished a lot, i still like im a complete FAIL. Somethings missing & i cant figure out what it is. I wanna go back, back in time & start over from high school. Id say 7th grade, but ehhh what really happens when your that young. It all begins in high school & there is SOOOO much i would have changed if i could. I know a lot of people say that, but after each event in high school right after i wished i had done differently. Dont get me wrong, i can still do a lot ckuz im still young but its just not the same. My motivation has died out and the few people that can boost it back up are 1200 miles away. On a better note, i've gained someone back in my life that ive missed deeply but never showed it because i didnt think there was a point. With that i can hope for the best, but i'll always except for the worse, just to keep myself sane.

Day 3: 8 ways to win your heart<3

1- you have to take me as i am, dont try to mold or change me

2- killer SMILE<3>

3- gotta love taking pictures; i do photoshoots

4- have something going with your life; school, steady/promising job & ambitions

5- pick up on the little things i like and surprise me with it

6- make me smile & laugh<3

7- make me see things in a different light

- feeeeeeeeeeeeeed me ;) haha

thats 8; theres more, but there are the basics... it seems easy, but i dont fall easy

i do love hard, when it happens!

- "Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."

T. Roosevelt

xoxo.

Forever Young.

Day 2: 9 things about yourself
-- so its supposed to be a 10 day challenge but its probably going to take me 15 days because im not home long enough to do so, oh well :)

1] i have OCD, ADD & im anemic
2] im spoiled & i always want EVERYTHING!
3] when i love, i love HARD- & i think thats my downfall
4] i dont like anything about myself, except my eyes :(
5] i put a lot of people before myself
6] i strive to get to the top & I WILL
7] im down to try almost anything
8] i have an obsession with ice, shoes, hoodies & pictures
9] i used to love to spend money, but now im loving to SAVE money!

the distance is annoying; but every night i go to bed with a smile just from words.

3 months & counting down.

years have gone by, but we've stayed the same.

"I neva had to worry about the things that worry me wit you!".

we dont judge; positive & encouraging.

dont worry, be happy.
xoxo.

Something New.

SUZUKI GSX-R600

yes; this is what i want ... my next goal & hopefully new toy by the beginning of 2011 :) i already know my dads okay with it, my mom though? ehhh not so much, but its what i want so yeah thats enough for me. -- I want it white & purple or black and purple, doesnt come in purple so we'll have to change that! I have so much going on right now that its stressful & irritating. I've made some poor choices, but no more of that. Its grind time & EVERYTHING i do from now on will be for ME! im tired of doing shit and it not be appreacitated. It sucks to be taken for granrted. I have a lot of changes coming my way & i'm going into these changes with full force... its not 2011 yet but there will be a NEW sybil coming your way, just watch :)

10 day challenge; DAY 1
yeah i know im all late, but ive been busy & stressed so now let it begin

1] I hate that we havent talked in so long and your not far from me, we need to re-connect & get back the way we used to, i love you & miss you, we've been strong for & now it feels like we're getting weak.
2] i forgive you for all that you've done & i appreciate the last things you've told me, im free & i have you to thank for that

3] you are thee number 1 person in my life, i love you more than anyone & anything, we'll be together forever; changing, growing & living!

4] i just met you, not even formally & we talked for only a total time of 20 minutes; but id like to thank you for everything you said; its stuff i tell myself but i needed to hear it from someone else to realize what needed to be done... remember im 21! haha

5] i miss you, you cross my mind from time to time even when we go without speaking. the times we had were some of the best times i've had ever and i love how we always go back and talk about that time. Whether you know this or not, i love you.

6] how this happened with us, i dont know but i like it. we've grown really close & i know i can talk to you & tell you anything. im not gonna lie, down the road its going to change & i hope you can forgive me for it, but know i'll always be there just like you've been there for me

7] i still think about you & i dont know why. It was only 1 month, but i guess because in 1 month you showed me things in a whole different way. I loved that change for the short while and sometimes i wish i had it back, but its okay because i'll still have what i know with me later on. take care of yourself.

8] i know im far, but i hate how this distance is keeping us distant. it bothers me, but at the same time i know that when i see you again, its going to be like i was never gone. love you!

9] we spend a lot of time together, we both want big changes but were not making moves to do so, so we need to get on that, i got your back & i'll help you through it.

10] i misssssssssssssssssssssss you, come back to me now!

xoxo.

She's Back.

well its been a very long time since ive last blogged- soo sad. ive been blogging in my head when i could be putting it down here; still gotta make a few changes, but im working on it -- number one on my list....

Ten Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order what so ever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smilelys that descirbe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


gonna do this.
xoxo

LG;

what can i say;
Life is Good<3
&& im legitimately happy(:

i'll update more latterrrrr......
"if someone just wants to up && leave for no reason; let em go"
<3

that little skally-wag!

check it;

haha had to do it; fckin' fred!
DEDiCAtED tO MY BESt fRiEND, APRiL<3

Crem De La Crem(:

Y O U A L R E A D Y K N O W! Im all over these like oreos & milk lol. & of course i gotta get the matching purse, well cos thats just me! & i must say, the spring collection for coach is lookin mighty nice ;]

yesterday: i stayed home all day being a lazy ass just because [wow it took me like a whole minute to spell this word, dont ask lol] i can 'cos im not in school this semester, mmm loves it. Around 630 Vanessa was like get ready & lets go! I swear shes one of thee only people i'll get up for. So i get ready & i hella didnt wanna leave 'cos Independence Day was on, not like i dont have the movie, but i wanted to watch it. I pick her up & we go to Islands 'cos we were both craving chocolate shakes(: We were there like an hour something, two hours talking about everything as usual. i love how i see or talk to her EVERYDAY and theres still always something new to talk about. =] &; after we went to starbucks, ahaha. I hate that pumpkin spices are only holidays 'cos thats the only hot drink i ever get, whomp whomp! We had NO CLUE what to do after; and its me and vanessa we pull some random shit. & what did we do; exactly that, randomly went to Crystals<3 The 3 of us talked for like 3 hours OUTSIDE in the COLD until the last 30 minutes when vanessa was like 'can we go in the car' ahaha. We hella caught up & talked about the craziest SCRATCH THAT thee braziestttt shiit ever. I got to talk to Gabe! Aww PMB(: I missed that guy, seriously. But shit last night was randommmmmmmmmm, no joke!

today: Mmmm im just gonna kick it until work because my lazy streak of the past 3 days has gotten the best of me & i dont wanna get ready for shit. Work today @ 5 till close & then apparently me & crystal are kickin it with Gabe! Talk about random, ahahaha. Oh yeah and i gotta put in my time off for next weekend too ;]

For this week:
today: work | kick it w/ crystal & gabe
tomorrow: lunch w/vanessa [estrada] @ 12 | boyfriend time | prolly w/vanessa
friday: w/the best friend | SWC track meet @ 1| work @ 5| grafetti walls w/sav6| hookah? saturday: work & thats all i know of so far
sunday: work @ 7a| Marley & Me w/best on base| dinner downtown w/old friends[random]

So i guess you can say im kinda busyy. I seriously have a lot of lunch dates planned with people i dont really talk to that much .. i guess everyone wants to kick it with sybil(: Yeah; 2009 is most definitely doing right by me<3

MADEA iS BACK BitCHES!(:

2|20|09 -- SAV6 iS tHERE!

chickachicka yaya! lol
xoxo[sybil<3]

the first; the official ...

fEBRUARY 1St 2009; Its the first day of the second month of 2009. Today marks Superbowl Sunday, my ONE month with my baby & Black History Month.

I have to say that 2009 is doing right by me! Lifes good and i'm taking it all in day by day. I'm over the drama & bullshit that people are still bringing, and yeah i know 'everyone says that' but i honestly think i'm one of the few who are ACTUALLY moving on from it. I see it all over myspace everyday; people talking about im done with the drama, the hurt, fck the haters, im doin me ... but then you go back and look and those same people are the ones hating; hating on those who are in relationships or those who have they're lives together and are happy. Its time to learn; that everyone is grown or growing, they'll make mistakes and instead of you callin them out on it, let them learn for themselves.

they say; "Everything Happens For A Reason"
& yes thats right, but at the same time ...
"Life is What You Make It"

... Thats a little something i like to go by. On the other hand, as much as i love San Diego i'm sooooooooo ready to leave. I need a new enviornment and a new experience. Yeah imma get home sick, but im not shitting on SD im just saying, its time for something new(: AUGUST 2009; im going from the 619 to the 702 & im excited =]

TO MY BABY;
i just wanna say HAPPY ONE MONTH<3 yeah even though it feels like we're reaching our 6 years! [technically we are] ups&downs, smiles&frowns we managed to try and make it work again, and this time it feels real. For anyone who doesnt know; we were broken up for the entire year of 2008 because Ranee had some issues he needed to work, yeah it took the whole year but it worked out for the better. He knows what he has to do now, because there wont be a next time & he knows im not playing; not even a little bit! ;] .... but we're REALLY good, dont trip haha. One month down, and if all goes good, we got plenty more ahead of us(: ----- i have 37 DAYS LEFT =[ and then he leaves me for boot camp [Air Force] where the only way i can talk to him is via mail (written btw) so im making the best of it ... I Love You Ranee Woods; Dont Forget It & Dont Slip Up ;] <3333


im happy & its only getting better(:
xoxo <3 sybil